Wednesday, June 27, 2012

I'm Being Negative Nelly


I can honestly say that when I am done with this chapter of my life, it’s going to be closed, completely. I haven’t met one person that I can honestly say that I would like to still be friends with when I leave. These are the people I am leaving behind:

The College Girls—The ones that were so obsessed with what the others were doing that they couldn’t see that they were fucking up friendships. They were honestly the cattiest group of bitches I’ve ever met.

The I-Wanna-Have-Sex-With-You-and-Your-Girlfriend Friend—WTF. We started as work friends and became better friends, eventually hanging out 3-4 times a week. Then we became best friends and had an honest, laid-back friendship where we could talk about anything. Then came the weird text messages, talking about how we should all ‘be together.’ Then came the touching, at first it wasn’t weird, an arm around me at a drunken party, touching Starr’s foot, but then touching became rubbing and we couldn’t handle it. So we let him know and what do you know? He freaked the fuck out. We quit being friends.

The I-Liked-You-Til-You-Grew-Up Friends—We would party every weekend, stay up til 6AM, hide from cops in the attic, talk about butt stuff and get so drunk we would forget how to walk. Then Kenzie had her accident and they never called again.

The Bosses—They are running the business into the ground, the turn over rate is ridiculous, around 80 percent. But they don't start hiring until we are 30 people understaffed. We get between 6,000 and 4,000 calls a day, depending on what time of the month. With 7 closers, employees get burnt put real fast. They are ridiculous. I have to put my vacation requests in twice, sometimes three times. Because they are always ‘forgotten.’ I called in Thursday (5/17) because I was sick and because I was scheduled to be T2 I thought it would be approved. Supervisor said it couldn’t be approved because the workload was done, so I would have been T1 (even though I was scheduled to be T2), so it went against my attendance. Thursday, (5/24) we didn’t have any escalations to be done and we had a pretty large queue, we didn’t even come close to meeting service level with a 20%, but yet co-worker got an approved early out. I talked to Manager about it, but she ignored me. I resigned from my T2 spot.

I know Lewistown is no paradise, but at least I won't be in a town I hate, at a job I hate, surrounded by people I hate.

To end this on a positive note:

-I passed my CNA test with a 92%.

-We are having a July 11th barbecue to celebrate being alive after the year we've had. It's at the new house, everyone bring their own chair and drinks! We'll have a fire and spend the night surrounded by good people. Let me know if you'd like to come or help out! It'll be the first time in 11 months that my parents, Kenzie, Starr and I are all in the same place.

-Stitch is growing like crazy! He's huuuge!

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Sucking It Up

I'm back in Bismarck. It's hard to be here when I feel like I'm just waiting to go home and start my life. We've decided to sell everything (bed, dressers, TVs) and only bring back our clothes and dishes. I'm glad! It gives me a purpose while I'm here. So I'm on mission: Throw All The Shit Away!

I'm back at work now too and I forgot just how much I hate it here. (By here, I mean work.) The managers aren't proactive, so they can't see a problem until it is right in their face. Like waiting til we are understaffed by 30 people to start hiring. It's just frustrating watching people shoot themselves in the foot. I used to care a lot about my job and the people I worked with. But now I could care less. I don't try, I'm over it. It's basically one of those you-screwed-me-over-but-now-it's-my-turn kind of deals.

It is, however, good to be back with Starr. I didn't know how much I missed her until I saw her again. It felt good to sleep in the same bed. Sleeping alone is awful!

Sunday, June 24, 2012

Surprise!

I've been working on a surprise for Starr for three weeks. I re-did our bedroom! I'm so glad it's finally done!

Before:




During:








This is where I got all my color ideas from:

It says: In our best moments, we understand that our vulnerabilities are what connect us, that we can step into the power that is uniquely ours, play hard, love bravely, offer comfort to our younger, broken selves, and soar, always soar on the brightness of being alive.

After:













Monday, June 18, 2012

Home Is Not Where You Live, But Where They Understand You

It's been a while! I've been in Lewistown since the 3rd. Skeeter (my horse) hurt her leg real bad and we were afraid that she we would have to put her down, but she's a trooper and now she is starting with the healing process.

I miss Starr like crazy! Sleeping alone is tougher than I thought it would be.
Stitch is officially ours! Him and Maggie are two peas in a pod, they play all day everyday. He sleeps through the night now it's awesome! He's pretty cute, too.

Kenzie's respiratory therapist moved down her trach size so hopefully we are on moving right ahead on the long road to closing that sucker up. It is so great to see her every day, but sometimes I just miss her like crazy. It's hard to see pictures and be reminded of everything that's been lost.  

CNA classes are going pretty good. I like it a lot more than I thought I would! I have pictures and an awesome video that Angela made for the Kenzie fundraiser.

Click here to watch the video. Make sure you have Kleenex!
Mr. Stitch


Kelsi cut my hair!
The view out my front door.
First time holding Stitch

Momma and the ponies


Spring Creek

A fawn outside the hospital

Horses right outside the door
Maggs!
Best friends
Kenzie, Pal and Daisy


Momma and Maggie
Skeet